Pretty awful day but good end

As noted in the title, today was a pretty awful day. I was running on 3 hours of sleep since i was so stressed out/anxious about that darn AP test. Then, today Gov had a test...I know, I know...it was an awful idea but I HAD TO DO IT! Today is still "Spring Break" in most of our minds. None of us wanted to be there, students or teachers, and then my students wanted to be there less because we had a test...and it was hard. All my tests are hard. I don't know how to make them easier and I don't really want to. Anyway, I had only half my classes, some still gone on break and some just skipped because they're lame.

I was informed 4 times today that i had either 1) Ruined their day 2)Ruined their break or 3) Ruined their week. Finally, by 7th I said, "Yes...I know...I ruined my own day...we're all miserable. At least we're unified in our misery." Anyway, by that time I was also somewhat dizzy from no sleep and too much caffeine. Plus, I was mad at myself that the darn test was so hard...because that means that I'm not teaching them enough. BLECH

I stayed a long time after school working with the girl who was diagnosed with clinical depression. It was really good. She was so grateful for me taking the time to help her and I really felt good about it too. She has been so distant all year but now I've finally hit home with her. Plus, it made me feel like a good teacher...I may not be as good at assessing my students learning, but at least I'm good in the way I make them feel appreciated and loved.

I came home and got my hair cut. Sometime I'll post a picture...I was awake by that time and busted out a bunch of stuff for class. My lessons for tomorrow don't look too bad, actually look pretty good and a student volunteered to come help me with some work after school. So, all in all, s'alright.

Reflection: I hate tests...even when I'm not the one taking them. I love my students...but they sure can make you feel like crap if they want to. I'm glad I got so much done and I'm pleased with my work. I wonder how long I'll be able to stay awake tomorrow...Oh yeah! I hit a spot today, with 3 week until the AP test, where I finally decided I'm doing too much work for my students. I am not letting them control my schedule anymore. it's too stressful. I mapped out my tutorials for the next 2 weeks to fit in everything we need to have but not have it be a free-for-all that they can make me go in 5 different directions at the same time.

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