I'm sad

I'm incredibly sad right now and I want to cry but I don't think I have a good enough reason to cry. I feel stupid.

Today was my kids' last day. Tomorrow they will be here but they will be doing senior things all day. Today was a mess. They were all so loud at the end of the period that I didn't get to say what I wanted to say. I wanted to say goodbye to them (I wanted to say I was proud of them but thought that would be cheesy). I wanted to wish them luck. I wanted to tell them to come visit me. I wanted to thank them for being patient. I wanted to, I dunno...maybe I just wanted them to know how much I care about them. But, it was too chaotic. 5th period mobbed me though, gave me a hug.

So now I'm sitting on the floor of my classroom, wanting to cry (maybe because I can't believe I'm done...maybe because I love those kids and now they're gone), thinking that this teaching thing is going to be harder than I thought. You work so hard and you bond with the students and then the end of the year comes and I can't even see them next year, they're just gone. I feel like a parent.

I need to remember that I don't need to hear their affirmation on this last day. They've told me all year.

But I'm still sad.

Reflection: Maybe I don't need to tell them all those things. Maybe they already know.

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