A Break and a Little Fresh Air

It has already been a wonderful spring break. Friday night Camille and I and a long-lost friend from high school met at a very posh restaurant in Seattle. It was just absolutely wonderful. I was very tired from the week, but after having a downer at the end of my Friday, the girl time was just a wonderful start to Spring Break. We dined on food that looked too beautiful to eat and got to catch up with Jessica, whom we hadn't seen in 6 years (!)! I couldn't believe 6 years had gone by...still can't.

Sabbath I woke up and was sick and had a hangover, haha. I was sick of getting up early and the exhaustion from the last month and a half hung-over onto Sabbath morning and the result was that I skipped church. I had a BEAUTIFUL morning. I stayed in bed late. I got rest. I got up and got coffee and breakfast and ate it in bed and stayed there until 1:30! It was heavenly. I really needed that.

After I got to my parents I was inspired to cook (probably since I had real energy for the first time in a month) so my sis and I went to work. I made this absolutely amazing chicken (with fresh ginger root, which I am now a HUGE fan of) and Margie made creme brulee, which turned out much better than we expected! Seriously, my sis is a genius when it comes to baking. I love cooking and I love it when I get to play with new things and new tastes. My family and I then sat down to a night of Lord of the Rings. Ahh...wonderful.

Today I relaxed most of the day, read part of The Hobbit, listened to Bach's Coffee Cantata (music, lyrics), which totally cracked me up and then made me fall in love with Bach all over again. Not much has happened, but it's been wonderful. I have also managed to make a deal with my two brothers (one real, one might as well be adopted) to help me grade this week. I take them to Tully's and buy them coffee and they grade with me for an hour. It's wonderful! They won't be bored for an hour, they get coffee, and I get all my grading done in one hour!

I think I'm going to get my hair cut tomorrow and I'm going to cook more and probably try to do taxes and banking. On the whole...this spring break was very much needed. My roommate is gone so I can just relax. Tonight on my way back home from my parents' house I had a longing to be back in Newberg, roaming around outside late at night.

So, I dropped off my things and stood outside on the balcony for awhile. It felt so good to breathe fresh air. I miss those wandering times.

Reflection: Sometimes a break and a little fresh air really relieves anxiety. In other reflections, I apparently need to start wanting to hear more about others and want to tell less about myself. That's very hard for me. A lot of times I feel like I don't have people to tell about myself so when I finally do have someone it all comes out. But, how do you change that need to talk about things? I have decided that I am a verbal processor, but it is true that the people who I verbally process to I frequently alienate. Is my "verbal processing" idea just an excuse to be selfish? I know that it is true that I talk too much about myself, but I'm not sure I can change that. I'm not sure I want to. I can see myself being very unhappy if I do. It worries me that my dad apparently thinks that is one of the things I need to learn before I will be able to have any kind of meaningful relationship. I think that's maybe why I needed the fresh air. Nevertheless, the fresh air was a good thing anyway.

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