



Yesterday and today have been reading days. All day yesterday I sat on the couch in my PJs, drinking a latte, hot chocolate and tea and just READING!! Oh, it was lovely. Margie and I had our books, our warm beverages and our lovely music. Today I finished Harry Potter and then Jessica and I watched the 5 hour Pride and Prejudice and chatted. It was wonderful. I've needed some days like this. I have been "doing" all summer.
I know that just about anyone who reads this knows how much I love Pride and Prejudice. But seriously, it's just amazing. When we finished we talked about the things that are needed in a marriage and after she went to bed I pulled out the book and read from when they meet again at Pemberly to the end. There are some scenes in there of honest openness between the couple, of genuine love and respect that are unmet in any other piece of literature.
I love that book.
I am fully in the mood to read all of Sense and Sensibility tomorrow but I think I have to go to school. That, ultimately, is the dilemma. I am terrified of starting school. I don't know why. When I was there last week I was excited. I have materials for AP and I've been teaching a year so I'm not really worried that I can't do it, I'm just...nervous, I guess. Sick-to-my-stomach-nervous. I feel sick thinking about going back. I'm not really sure what it stems from--inadequacy, fear of new students, fear of starting a year when I've never done that before, just the fact that I have to work again, laziness, I dunno. But, school starts the 4th and we have a few days of training next Thursday and Friday...so that means I really should go back tomorrow to make sure I know what I'm doing when school starts. I know it will be fine when I get to school and see everyone and when the kids walk in the door. There is just some kind of energy that fills me/teachers when we're in the element. I just have to get myself to that spot before throwing up in nervousness.
Anyway, something to pray about. I'm very thankful though, for the great few days I've had. Finally, a vacation.
1 comments:
congrats on your relaxing, fun-filled summer days! i know it is a growing commodity in this grown-up world.
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