Overwhelmed

Well...i need help.

Here's the deal:

I don't know how I'm going to handle this summer.

My roommate just told me that she is going to move out on her own for next year. This is not a horrible thing. She's been awful lately. She's never home. I'm always by myself. She constantly makes me feel bad if I leave a cup on the counter (even though, seriously, if you saw our apartment you'd be able to see that I try very hard for her. I am not a naturally spotless person.)

Man, I don't even know where to start. I'm just going to start writing down whatever comes to my head.

Jess and I are not compatible. But, I do not want to live by myself anymore. I get so lonely and at least with Jess, I may not see her, but I hear her and there is evidence of her. Also, I get a bigger apartment. I love my apartment. I love the rent that I pay. I love that it is 15 minutes from school. Above all else, I DO NOT WANT TO MOVE AGAIN! I have moved once or twice a year for the past 6 years! I'm settled here!

But that's not the worse part.

Just last night I was realizing all that I have to do before Margie and I take our trip. We're traveling to Ireland this summer.

I have to save up money to pay for Conference. I have to pay for Conference flight and week. I have to GET A TICKET...which is easier said than done.

That I can manage before I go...but it will be expensive.

But

I will be gone from June 23 until July 17, and then I will be in Oregon until the end of July. Wedding #1 on 20th, #2 on 26th, after which I will drive home.

I will be home a little less than a week.

Then, I will fly out to Conference, from August 3 to August 10th.

My lease expires August 5.

So...that means that in 1 month, when I leave for Ireland I must:

• be registered and paid for Conference
• find a flight to conference
• pack up my entire apartment
• find a new apartment
• sign a new lease
  
• put a down payment on a new apartment
• be ready to move in when I get back from Conference after having been gone for 2 months

And in the end...I still don't have a roommate.

I thought the overwhelmingness was going to end after the AP test is over.

I can manage getting Conference paid for, finding a flight, and maybe even packing up my whole apartment. But there is no way I can find an apartment in time. Most apartments don't even open up until a few weeks out, and they have to meet you first. Unless my parents can find me an apartment and I can just go in to meet them when I'm home for that week....but if I have to store things from my old apartment for a while, that means I'd have to rent a storage facility too...

I'm going to cry. Forget ransacking my room tonight to locate my passport. I'm just going to cry.

Anyone got any suggestions?

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